Sadness
bears down upon me
Like
waves battling within the open sea
I’m
struggling to stay above, fighting not to go under
‘Sink
or swim’ it whispers
It
tempts me with its soft voice
Lulls
me into a false security
‘Come’
it murmurs
‘Just
stop struggling’
‘You’ve
had enough’
‘You’re
just not that strong’
‘No
one cares’ it taunts
I close
my eyes
Oh I
try not to listen
But
truth is what it speaks
The words that it weaves
Open the hidden wounds I’ve tried to hide
I take a breath and try so very hard not to cry
There’s a crack in my defenses
It tries to get through
Once again it attempts to lure me in
Its voice tender as if it caresses my cheek
‘I love you’ it coos
‘I will never leave you’ it promises
My
barricades crack even more
I so
want to believe
Even
though I know they are just empty words
Seeds
of doubt spring forth
Pushing
me closer to its side
Would
it just be easier leaving?
It’s
not like I’ll be missed
No
one cares
‘So
true’ it agrees
They
always go
Leaving
me cold and alone
‘Forever
and ever’ it points out
What’s
the point of struggling?
Does
it really matter?
‘Not
anymore.’ It voices understandingly
It
has begun to seep through my crumbling defenses
I
know this and so does it
‘Follow
me under’ it wishes
‘Your
pain will be over’ it purrs
This
time it’s harder to resist
My
arms cease in the struggle
Slowly
I begin to descend
Inch
by inch
Lower
and lower I go
The
end has finally come
One
last breath before I’m undone
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